11.26.2014

A Race With No Finish Line

There is possibly no where in America you could be right now and not know about the circumstances in Fergurson, MO. 


Murder. Injustice. Ignorance. Corruption. 



No, this is not a movie. This is reality. This has been happening. This day and age as the internet intensifies a headline, there are many more stories similar to those that of Mike Brown, Trayvon Martin, Sean Bell, Eric Garner, Oscar Grant, [etc]  that have not hit mainstream media.  

Disturbing. 

As a black man, my days are possibly numbered. My death could easily be the next thesis on racial injustice. I just can't help but think what can we do to stop the fiasco and can it Be stopped. What exactly are we fighting for and can we succeed. Certain things are easier and more rational than others. Demanding justice for Mike Brown and any one alike makes sense and requires  an IMMEDIATE response. Racism, though....

If we are as well fighting a war on racism to me seems like a less concrete thing to settle. When slavery "ended" in 1865 it was easier to say "Hey, you are NOT allowed to do this...can't have slaves." Vs. Trying to make them understand WHY it was wrong TO have slaves, because clearly even after being freed from the shackles {physically,}  getting our voting rights, desegregation, and a black president does NOT mean that this country is POST-racial. Don't think because the "WHITES ONLY" signs isn't seen by the naked eye, that the "WHITES ONLY" mentality still isn't there. Don't think because the lynches are over and we are allowed to sit in front bus that the "you can't sit here" mindset still isn't there. They just found new ways to degrade us.



It's easier to say DON'T do that than to teach WHY it's wrong TO do that.

Demanding to be respected LAWFULLY is not the same as being respected heartedly.  Lawfully is a battle we can actually win, but pushing to change an individual's mindset/mentality/personal feelings on racial issues seems like a childlike naivety such as expecting WORLD peace, HA...yeah, right. The country...this world is far from an utopia where we all will get along despite religion, sexuality, race and financial standing. 

For as long as there are differences in the roots of my hair from theirs, difference in my skin, this injustice will continue to be so. Am I being realist or a pessimist?

The one thing I cannot STAND about racial activists [I'm speaking mostly to the BLACK ones] is they try to make this wholesome argument...like "we are the world" and that we are ALL the same despite racial background, so we should respect one another. 

WRONG. 

We are NOT the same and I'm glad it's that way, because I am proud to be black. Trying to make people "see" that we are all the "same" in order for a mutual respect to formulate is apart of THE problem. People tend to NOT respect someone unless they walk, talk, and LOOK like them. What we SHOULD be teaching is that it's okay to BE different and that the differences between you and someone else should NOT depend on if you're going to respect them or not. 

Sure in-between laps you could get a few tune ups, but is this a race with no finish line?

11.23.2014

Let's Talk About Dick!

Let’s talk about Dick

Let’s talk about a H A R D Dick

When it’s standing at attention like it’s got a proclamation
I want it to be the thing behind me, making me scream

Exclamation

The point is  to give him something he can take

Let me bend over so he can taste

And pro-tip, I want more than just the tip

Give me all, no question

I know he like it when I’m begging

I ain’t too proud, the dick good, give it to me NOW

Pull my legs up where ever the wind blows

I want him so deep in me his cum comes out of my mouth when he close

When he close and he feel this ass enclose on him

When his eyes roll back and I throw it back on him

Para siempre

Forever this MY dick

Put these lips on him

He love being inside me and I love it when that dick buried deep.
Buried deep

Papi, throw it deep

Dick so bomb, I don’t what state I’m in

Michigan State, Florida State

Prostate
You hitting that

Got me reaching for the ceilings
Keep doing that  

You tryna make me cum first

Converse
Baby, make this ass talk

Make sure I can’t walk

Shit and I got things to do today, but Fuck it

Fuck it

Fuck me

Oh excuse me

I had a little moment, it happens 

When I talk about Dick

I mean a REAL HARD Dick

Then I get a HARD Dick

When I get around a HARD Dick

That hard dick turns into a SUCKED Dick

A drained and a FUCKED Dick

Never leaking dick

I take care of it, all of it

Every drop

Either it left me with a dripping hole or I swallowed it

Let’s talk about dick

Or better yet what this mouth and tight ass can do to it. 


11.20.2014

No Longer Will I...

As a black gay man 

No Longer Will I

Defend myself as black man

No Longer Will I

Defend myself as a gay man

As a minority I will no longer

Explain racism to the majority

As a homosexual I will no longer 

Explain homophobia to an heterosexual 

I'm getting too grown for this

Shit, I've outgrown this

I should not have to explain

Who I Am 

I will no longer.


11.16.2014

Possessive, Just Jealous or Just Right?



My man and I have both have establish that I [allegedly] may be the “crazy  one” of our relationship, Ha.   The one always question other’s intention with my man, quick to get in your face about my man, willing to go to jail over my man.

At times I had to sit back and think about rather is this right. Should I chill? Is this shit normal? This is among the reasons people get left…for being too protective. Then there’s a side of me that thinks FUCK THAT…I love HARD and I know I’m crazy, if dude can’t handle my attitude should NOT be with me. And baby, He CAN handle my attitude. He assures me, “I would be worried if you’re ever NOT crazy. It shows how much you love me.” Yet…I still worry. That enough will be enough and it will finally be too much and he leaves.

Everyone he has ever spoken to I've warned him about. Was it possessiveness, jealousy  or was I just right? Because every single one of them actually did end being an asshole/trifling one way or the other. I was always right about them yet I still feel like I’m manipulating the situation by keeping people away from him. Yet I was still right about them...all of them.

I tell myself I should stop tripping, but I feel I have ever fucking reason to trip. I don’t trust people and people have always given me a reason to continue with my lack of trust.


I just love him, I love him hard. I’m crazy  for him…hell, I’m psychotic for him.