Turn It UPPPPP!!!!

I cannot get over the creatively and the incredible choreography in this video. Not much music videos [close to non] excite me. But this video AND the song in itself gets me PUMPED! Chris Brown's "Turn Up The Music!"

Let's Talk About Parent/Child Relationships

Some parents LOVE their children, Yes...but do they RESPECT THEM? Love AND Respect your child, that means givin them PRIVACY when they deserve it. When you are all up in they biz...I mean in EVERYTHING...come in and out in their room w/o knocking, rudely awakening them from their sleep [specially if you know that got somewhere to be and need sleep then not feel bad when you tell them you felt shitty all day cuz they messed up your sleep]...Thats not RESPECT! DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW IT FEELS TO FEEL YOU ARE NOT RESPECTED BY YOUR PARENTS? Do you WANT your child to feel that way. It comes a certain age that your child reaches that they deserve for you to BACK OFF a little. Unless they are that shitty of a child, but if not then....yea.

 THAT was from my personal Facebook status. I am FUCKING fed up with this society's or at least a Black Family's mentality that no how old your child is...NO MATTER if they are within age were you SHOULD give them more respect and more freedom...DON'T! STILL treat them like a child regardless, making them feel like shit that YOU as a parent don't give a FUCK about them enough to RESPECT them. Love and RESPECT are two different things, I know you love me...but you DON'T respect me. I am fucking tired of my feelings NOT MATTERING unless I helping with bills...THAT'S FUCKED UP. And that's how your children gonna grow up thinking that's how it suppose to be done. NO! Yes I AM going to move out and get my OWN one day, but I should be RESPECTED as the adult I AM while I am still living with you. A man could be praised and respect to the greatest level, but when he comes to his "HOME" and is not respected NON of that matters. Because he doesn't feel like he matters in his own home....THIS IS SUPPOSE TO BE MY HOME! But I feel like I prisoner until I can leave and have my own, which I am no where near close to being able to do. And to treat me unfair and treat like a child and when I come to you about it like, "Well if you don't like it move out!" Which if I remember correctly when I first got my job 3 yrs I offered to help with bills. I was turned DOWN! <<<---This post has been in my drafts for a while because  I was going back and forth with myself asking, "What this be worth blogging about." This specific is too...OUT there, for me to go in depth with it...let's just say I'm sooo ready to get out of my parents house...mmm that's sad "my parent's house" BUT that IS suppose to be my home, but I don't like it is so. Whatever.....

I Have Learned...

That at times 

the BEST decisions could indeed 

be the hardest to make.

"I Don't Like Labels"

I HAVE said this before, but I feel it should not only be said once. Why are we keeping up this “I don’t like labels” bullshit. Its only giving people excuses NOT be real with their selves. If you dont like Labels then I guess you are NOTHING. Are u not human? a male/female? Are you not black/white/asian/etc? Are u not [what ever ur age is?] I hate to break it to you but those ARE LABELS. WHY PEOPLE ONLY SAY THAT WHEN SEXUALITY COMES UP? Real talk only gay ppl say that “I don't like labels” thing 'cause subconsciously they are offended by the TRUTH…Why would someone str8 say they don’t like labels?…'cause they ain't ashamed of being str8….let's STOP the bullshit please. At least admit to truth 

to your self.  

Are you a "Fag hag"?

If you ARE...I got a message for you, I don’t like you, and I am annoyed with you. First off it IS cool if you want to be a friends with a gay guy because  he is COOL as hell as a friend and the two of you get along WELL and the two of you just have that connection that friends should have. BUT if you want a gay friend JUST so you can basically him as your gaydar and tell you what other guy is gay…and having “chick talks” with him. Unacceptable.  ME PERSONALLY just because I am gay does NOT mean I am interested in being 1 of your “girlfriends” and have girl talk. And our “friendship” WILL NOT be based on entertaining you with my GAYNESS…I understand as my female friend you WOULD want to know things about about my sexuality, but understand Everything SHOULDNT be centered around me being gay. 

35 More Days...

Valentines day has been only 3 days ago. When I think of what I did last Valentines day...ironic. Last year, a month after February...in March I connected with Ismael, my boyfriend.  We have both agreed to make the 23rd of March our official anniversary day. It would be in 35 more days. When I think about all we went through in just a year from our computers and only meeting in the flesh once. When I think about this online gay fiction that I have been reading since my last year of high school. Yes it is a long, GREAT story. The 2 main characters, Chris and Ricardo...the lovers...have been through so much. From breaking up then on the verge of making up, then Chris moves away and just when the other was just about to move there as well, the other gets stabbed in the head, gets amnesia from it, but lives. 


He forgets of their love, but he has a connection with  the other...he just didn't know it was love, because his memory was gone. He got his memory back, not his complete memory, but just a part of it...the part that remembered the reason why he and Ricardo broke up in the first place...which lead to another barrier between them. Getting closer to the point. Somewhere down the line of it all Chris got HIV. Another barrier between them. NOW these 2 characters are ENGAGED and getting married. Despite everything they have gone through. So my point is even though this is just a gay fiction story, but it does NOT change the FACT the Love IS strong...and no matter what, if it's true love...there is NOTHING that can defeat it UNLESS you CHOOSE to give up. 




Me and my man, our situation is stressful, my boyfriend is going through things and I'm going through things. And all we can do is vent to each other on Skype, we can't physically hug each other, kiss each other...that's stressful. But we are still together, I am still with him. He has given me chances to leave, saying "I am causing you too much stress, you deserve better." Well I do have better...I have you. Do I like what you going through? No. Do I like that it makes me feel shit to know what you are going through? No. But WHY WOULD I NOT FEEL LIKE SHIT? So of course. I'm more bothered that I can't do anything about it physically. All I can do is listen to you vent. Is it stressful? I'm not going to lie and say it's not. But I am NOT going anywhere because our time will come. We have plans to live together, we are not able now in our life, but we are getting closer. TRUE LOVE always MAKES IT. 35 MORE DAYS...it will be a day of many more. 

In Peace and Music you shall REST.

We all might have told a few Whitney jokes while she was here, but her beautiful voice and talent and the Power of her music is undeniable. Regardless of what she had going on in her personal life she yet STILL carried herself like a LADY. Rest in Peace and Music Whitney Houston.