FIRST IN HISTORY! 1st Active American Athlete Comes Out!

Shouts out to pro-baller JASON COLLINS on his ‘coming out.’ He is currently the FIRST athlete in the history of American sports to be out WHILE being an active player and he’s black! Although he is currently a free agent…will this keep him from being picked up by another team?

THIS is big because not only he's making history...like, period, but he is making history for the black and LGBT community. This could be the beginning of something beautiful. Finally a guy who isn't waiting until retirement to get the balls to come out.  KUDOS to him...I have his back!

But what does this mean for his athletic career? 

Guess Who Had The BEST Week Ever!! !!

It's been TWO years we've been together. Our love is stronger than ever, we talk every day...falling deeper in love with each day. Yet only psychically touched flesh to flesh briefly. Stress in the highest levels because of our inability to see each other  being from different states, conflicting schedules with work and  other crazy obstacles keeping us from each other. Because of the boyfriend's family crisis with his sister and brother in law. he made an emergency travel down to Florida from Atlanta. After the dust settle there it was like God set everything else in place. 

Upon leaving Florida was it a "coincidence" that his brother in law's mother lives in Baton Rouge and asked to drop her off on the way. Everything is too much of a "coincidence" for me not to believe that God wasn't watching out for us. Everything to HOW we met and even back to BEFORE we met. It seems like aspect of our lives since before we even met was leading up to our relationship...just like how everything lead to us FINALLY able to Officially spend quality time with each other. 

Although pain lead up to this, his brother in law was rushed to the hospital, he was left to console a crying older sister. But he is better and BACK at home. The Lord does work in mysterious ways. 

He dropped her off in Baton Rouge, LA and headed to Shreveport, LA to be WITH ME! MY MAN EVEN PICKED ME UP FROM WORK! 

This was Tuesday night, April 23, 2013, he just left today.[sad face] I am blessed to that we were even able to have that time together. We got an hotel..kiss, kiss, and kissed. Laughs, smiled, hugged, and cuddled. And MADE LOVE!

We are BOTH officially NOT virgins anymore and MAN let me tell you, his dick was Sooooo fucking good. To finally have it inside me was the MOST mountain moving ever in my life. Never felt that much pleasure in my fucking life. YES, he fucked me and fucked me GOOD. Gave it to me like he knew I wanted.

Last night, we cried in each other's arms. It's no telling when we will have that time to spend together again.  

The hardest thing was watching him pull off from my driveway on his way back to his home in Atlanta, GA.  

Blood Is Thicker Than Water

What do you when you see someone you look UP to going on a downward spiral in life. Someone you idolize going through tribulations you can't help them with?

My older brother's marriage is falling apart right before my eyes. Before you think "Oh what is he doing wrong?" just because he's the GUY...it's really HER. My sister in law that I have always liked. *Shaking my head*

Now this is where I put the "don't go judging" disclaimer, but it actuality I AM judging her. No my bro has done some wrongs...at least all the wrongs he has TOLD me. But from what I know, he stood and admitted his wrong as a man and as a marriage couple they supposedly "worked it out." But HER deceitfulness is on a whole another and from what I know my brother has never went to such extent as she. 

Now before you think I being bias towards my brother, that is not it. He knows that if he wrongs I WILL tell him as I have in the past. 

I believe, if my memory serves my correctly, that they got married in 2009, was still in high school but was graduating that year. I remember because I came to school hung over from the bachelor party...[yes, it was underage drinking...what YOU gonna DO ABOUT IT?! lol] So married in '09, my brother has been looking through phone records and the locations of the calls...shit ISN'T matching up to where she "SAY" she was at and what she "SAY" she was doing. And apparently the same *unknown* number been coming up since  fucking 2011. A number that SHE IS associated with, but doesn't want her husband to know. WHY IS THAT? Hmmmm.  Now this guy is who my brother is sure is guy that works with her...this guy is apparently just a "get back at chu" guy. You know what that is? He was used for revenge because SHE claims believes that HE was with a women in New Orleans back in 2011. And she STILL believes that. But guess what, HE WASN'T! Want to know I how I know...cause HE, and MY COUSIN came down Baton Rouge to hang with ME when I was in school and we hang out in New Orleans. 

Now they say that the main person suspicious and suspects cheating and falsely accusing is the EXACT one that is cheating.  

And plus that she has ADMITTED to giving her attention to ANOTHER guy  and exchanged SEXUAL phone texts messages with him. She states that she is no more talking to him and THAT is as far as it went. As if it was even OKAY that you sexually flirted with another guy rather it was physical or not.  For MONTHS she has deleted texts, LOCKED her phone, gotten PRIVATE apps and stored his texts THERE. 

Now I only know what is going on from my brother and the awkward night where I, my mom and dad were at their home and they were arguing...won't get in to that, but sounds dysfunctional, right? 

My brother doesn't want me to treat her differently because, "everyone makes mistakes" yea, right mistake aren't continual. But never the less...I will do as he say. I won't TREAT her different, but I FEEL different about her. Yes I love and care for her as apart of my family, BUT at the end of the day...you start hurting my brother, you are not on my good list. BLOOD IS THICKER THAN WATER. 

The worst part of that my NIECES in the mix of all this. That's the WORST part. This is why I don't have ANY once of respect for cheaters especially when you have a FAMILY. Because if you are cheating on your SPOUSE then you are cheating on those CHILDREN. If you are abusing your spouse then you are abusing those CHILDREN. Every thing you are doing to your spouse WILL affect those children. 

*sighs* well enough airing out dirty laundry....gladly no ones in my family knows about my shit or I would be fucked, lol. 

[apologize for any errors but I honestly don't have any care to make sure this drama filled of an entry is grammatically correct ]

The Honeymoon BEEN Over!

Isn't it funny when you wake up out of your bed and you immediately know that THAT day just isn't gonna be your day? Well  really isn't funny, buy you get the point. 

Today I got my yearly employee evaluation as many have as well. There were 4 levels: 

1. Being OUTSTANDING
2. Being ABOVE AVERAGE
3. Being RIGHT ON TARGET
4. BELOW TARGET

Now although I did not fail this evaluation. My overall rating was '3.' There were SOME things I hit '4' at, those were either things I KNEW I lacked [and don't care]  and the other was a LIE. I mean it not fair at all to "evaluate" on my whole work performance when you are NOT around me 24/7 when I AM doing my job and helping customers. 

April Showers

Loving you is all I need 

Never take your love from me 

Cuz I think I would lose my mind 

If you would go away

 Oh, say you'll never leave my side, 

That forever you'll be mine 

(Oh) April Shower me with your love

~Artist: Dru Hill from "April Showers"~

[And yes, that is an actual image of ME]