A blog post from Forbidden Light's The Mystery of the Male Body, sparked something in me. His post reminded me when I first started to discover how beautiful the male specimen is...and my process of WANTING to know and DISCOVERING MORE of the mystery of the male body. As a yungin I remember when my ma would get her subscription of JC Penney catalogs in the mail...it would be like Christmas to me. When I was alone I would open it, immediately go to the youth and teen section, seek out some cute boys(mind you I WAS in these boys age range), ...and of course I did this when the ghost was clear { cuz even being so young I knew I was not "suppose" to be looking boys} Yes I picked out a few cute girls, but that's not where most of my attention was at. Most of my focus was boys but then I started to want more, so I explored whole catalog to see if there was MORE and I found it...
The men's underwear section and OMG!, at my young age...THAT BLEW MY MIND. I stared, and stared, I drooled, and drooled,...Hey, sometimes I even licked the page(I was young then, don't judge,lol) This was OBVIOUSLY not to be comparable to the lil boys...THESE WERE MEN, grown men with bulges poking out of their Hanes® and Fruit of the Looms®...you wouldn't see THAT in the youth section, that would be kiddie porn. Then slowly but surely my focus was lost on the boys of my own age and centered around the men's underwear section of the JC Penney catalog every time a new one came in the mail. That lasted at while, being in my pre-teens I didn't have much to work with. But I wanted MORE.
Picking up and opening Hip-Hop based music mags like TheSource, VIBE , etc...I started to take notice of the sexy as hell rappers and R&B singers. So then I started admire the facial beauty of a men instead of the groin area,lol. And you know a magazine has to have Ads, sometimes those Ads have people in it, sometimes those people are men, sexy men, sometimes sexy SHIRTLESS men,lol. Sure I actually read a few articles here and there, but for a while{ hell I still do it a lot now sometimes,unless an articles really catches my attention} my main intentions was to find Ads with any sexy shirtless guy...and a lot of times I did. The first time I was able to just stare at the beauty of men and his body and not JUST his face or JUST his groin area made me feel good to say the least. Then I discovered MORE...
My older bro started to get subscriptions of Men's Fitness in the mail...and my mind was BLOWN AGAIN, I was in middle school then(either 7th or 8th, don't remember).HOT, Sweaty, Oiled down Bodies,Washboard Abs,V-Cuts,Biceps, Muscular Thighs, Defined Pecs, and Pretty Lickable Nipples,lol. This is when I started think real vulgarly freaky of what I wanted these men to do to me, Oh how bad I wanted them to "workout" on me,lol. Then I discovered some MORE...
Found it in my bro's room, little booklets of Porn. I guess you can say it was something like a porn catalog, because it had previews of a scene, the name of the Vid under it and the price. it advertised other XXX mags to. So since this was a porn "catalog" it had a gay section, with previews...THIS was my 1st Introduction to the World of Gay Porn. The 1st time I saw a dick in another dudes booty, the 1st time I seen a dick in a guys mouth,...was in this lil booklet. And I LOVED the sight. So every time my bro was out his room, I invaded...got to the point where...
...Of course I wanted more but for a while this was all I had access to. I didn't really started to explicitly explore the net until my teens yrs @ 16, arriving in high school. And when I did OMG!...I was now watchin free gay porn videos. This is when fantasies of menONmen action started, this is when...I started to have Crazy WET dreams,lol. At this point those Men's Fitness couldn't do a DAMN thing for me anymore, it just wasn't good enough. I saw men FUCKING{w/rubbers on/or BAREBACK}, SUCKING, and CUMMING/CUM SWALLOWIN.Thug porn... dudes that look and acted SOOO "hood" fucking eachother...the, "Fuck ME Nigga!" and, "Take dis dick Nigga!" were SOO hot then, of course now most of the time it sounds sooo scripted that its not appeasing anymore., but the scene could still be sexy with the right ingredients. Latino porn, Black, White, hell didn't matter,...if they was sexy I tuned in, Dominance/Submissiveness, soooo HOT ...I was in Heaven, the World Wide Web is a beautiful thing,lol.
Now that I have probably seen the freakiest, hottest things on the net(that can be accessed FREE at least, I don't go on pay sites) I'm to point where I...guess what...YEAH you guess right...I WANT MORE. The ONLY thing that would be more now IS THE REAL THING. There's ONE final step in the process of discovering the mystery of the male body...is to be closer than close to one in REAL LIFE...Excuse me while I'm about get vulgar, but shyt this IS MY BLOG,lol. I wanna know how a dick taste, 4 REAL. I wanna know how it feels inside me , 4 REAL. I wanna know how it feels for my orgasm to be cause by another men. To be held, kissed and licked. But I guess I have to stick to my porn for now. :sighs:
-thanx to Forbidden Light for indirectly inspiring me,lol. This is my longest post ever. I'm proud of myself.
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