SUICIDE IS NOT THE WAY(Why the RISE in gayteen Suicide?...)

The heighten amount of gay teen suicide lately saddens me. It ALL could have been avoided...its no secret WHY they did it. Because the things Said and Done to them, they felt it was NO other way to get away from it. The way I see it the UNaccepting/homophobic community ARE responsible. Why I say this...well because Lawfully speaking just because the person in question was Not DIRECTLY  involved the crime does Not mean that they wasn't IN-directly involve via Conspiracy. So the things that were SAID and DONE to these individuals(rest in peace) CAUSE them to do this...SOOOOO they might as well have pulled the trigger their selves. If you are bullying you ARE enabling that person to possibly commit suicide OR bring a GUN to school. With EVERY tear dropped from their eyes...the MORE the tears drops from those eyes that YOU caused...YOU ARE PUTTING THAT GUN IN THEIR HAND!!  WORDS DO HURT!!!!! A lot of these victims are younger the 16. SOOOO much life left in them!!!  People on the outside looking in ask a question, "Why would a person kill themselves?" Your answer because they felt the powers that be gave them motive...a MOTIVE does not mean that motive was a good reason, but it was too much for them to take anymore. People on the outside looking in feel that those commit suicide are COWARDS...SOOOOO judgmental. How could you, YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THEY WENT THRU TO GET THEM TO THAT POINT!!! 

If I can share my story for a moment if you don't mind...I used to call MYSELF a coward a while back, because I DIDN'T KILL MYSELF!!!! Yea that's right, suicide was HEAVY on MY mind once upon a time.I think it was on a LOT of minds suffering from the SAME situation a closeted/out gay teen couldn't help to find their selves in. I was thinking these guys WASN'T  cowards because they did what I couldn't do. I would always have a excuses: couldn't use a gun, wouldn't know the first thing about going about Getting one AND I always thought,"Well I don't want my suicide to be messy..." couldn't over dose on pills because its difficult for me to swallow them. Didn't wanna hang myself, I would still have to suffer as I'm choking. "Oh I can't kill myself now, my bro getting married...me killing myself would put a damper on that." I know it was ALLL because I simply didn't have the heart to take my own life anyway....SOOOO I hope for some freak accident to kill  me. But I HAVE a life TO LIVE!!!

I've realize SUICIDE IS NOT THE WAY. You HAVE TO realize that there ARE heartless people who WANT US DEAD...WE CAN NOT GIVE WHAT THEY WANT!!!!!!! I UNDERSTAND, I REALLLLY DO, BUT ITS NOT THE WAY!! I'm STILL here, a COLLEGE student, I expected NOT to be here because I wanted to be dead and gone by now. But I'm STILL here, even though this gay thing is bit of a problem, hell it ALWAYS will be...BUT THERE STILL WILL BE SMILES, NOT FROWNS ALL THE TIME. I'm a PROUD uncle of THREE BEAUTIFUL nieces,  I'm having a BLAST out here in SU in Baton Rouge. When ever its dark outside, just know the sun IS shining some where, and as the world spends the BRIGHT SIDE WILL COME TO YOU.T H I N K before you commit...You never know the HAPPINESS that awaits YOU in the future.

~REST IN PEACE TO THE LOST ONES!!!!