Essfitcee: December 2010

12.30.2010

The TAKER

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12.25.2010

12.22.2010

:sighs: I STILL think about You...

Its been a year, SIX months, and TWENTY-TWO days since May 22nd of 2009, the day we graduated high school. I haven't SEEN you in the flesh since, but you're STILL on my mind. YOU was the one that ADDED fuel to the Fire when I was going thru the motions with my sexuality. You know the story of the closeted confused gay teen IN LOVE with the STRAIGHT boi...yea That was the story of my life. EVERY night I dreamt about You making Love to ME, holding ME, saying you Love ME! You KNOW your life SUCKS when you look forward to sleep 'cause you KNOW its your ONLY happy time. I wrote SOOOO many poems dedicated to You. You're Tall, Smart, had a Sense of Humor, Athletic, you were HOT, and you had a HOT body...I admired you. I was SURE I was in love with you, then I told myself I wasn't...I told myself I'm in Lust with you, then I told myself Blah,blah...I was obsessed, infatuated, it didn't matter WHAT it was...'cause ALLL of those things ARE feelings, so no matter WHAT I had FEELINS for YOU, no matter WHAT those feelins was. You made me slushy on the inside, when ever you spoke, hell EVEN when I simply HEARD your name, the person who said it didnt even have to be talking about You...there's LOTS of people in this world with That name. I was ALWAYS soo excited when you spoke to me, when you would say,"Hi" to me, but of course I couldn't show it, so I gave the infamous,"Sup" afterwards I always fought with myself telling myself I SHOULDA appeared More happy to talk to you.

I HAD you as a friend on Myspace, at the Time when I added you really wasn't THAT big of deal, but later on I'm was SOOOO glad I had You in my friends list, so I could look at your pictures and FEAST on your BEAUTY like I couldn't do at school. So as time progress my feelins went DEEPER, the More DEEPER it went, the MORE I wanted you DEEP inside ME, but ahhh let's NOT make this sexual, HaHa. Anyway I thought about tellin you all this...I thought writing you an anonymous note but HOW THE HELL would give it to you AND you just MIGHT know my handwriting anyway, we Did have class together. Sooo I THOUGHT about creating a profile on Myspace that Sole purpose would serve as my *note, I would NOT have NO type of info on it, just send you a message, and delete it once I see you have read it. You WON'T know that it was ME, but at least you'll know how I feel. I EVEN went as FAR as To PRINT out TWO of your pics, so I wouldn't have to be on the computer to see you. Stalker-ish, kinda...maybe, but Whatev. THAT was my only way to really look at you like wanted to...SO imagine My despair when You DELETED you Myspace for some reason. I search and search almost every damn day to see if you maybe created a New one...One day it happen, put a smile on my face. I was getting PISSED 'cause one time you had you page Private, the next it wasn't, the next your page was open but your Pics was private, UGH! I was TOOO shy to add you Again, AS STUPID as It sounds I felt like just by adding you would KNOW, I felt like adding you was telling you I WANTED YOU!...too scared to click that *Add Friend* button. Your pics from then on out STAYed private, but I still was getting all I could get out of your default picture, but that stopped 'cause now you never on Myspace, sooooo I COULDNT SEE YOU ANYMORE, I stop visiting your page. As the time I noted earlier started to be set in motion I started to think about you LESS and LESS...I THOUGHT I was over you Until...

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12.20.2010

On THIS day of Dec. 20, 2010 is Essfitcee 1ST ANNIVERSARY!!

12.13.2010

Luv IS a beautiful thing...wish I had it.

12.09.2010

¿WHO IS DOING THE WORK?

I GOT THIS E-MAIL & I THOUGHT I WOULD SHARE IT WITH YOU GUYS:

The
population of this country is 300 million.

160
million are retired.

That leaves 140 million to do the
work.

There are 85 million in school.

Which leaves 55 million to do the work.

Of this there are 35 million employed by the federal
government.

Leaving 20 million to do the work.

2.8 million are in the armed forces preoccupied
with killing Osama
Bin-Laden.

Which leaves 17.2
million to do the work.

Take from that total the 15.8
million people who work for state and city
Governments. And that
leaves 1.4 million to do the work.

At any given
time there are 188,000 people in hospitals.

Leaving
1,212,000 to do the work.

Now, there are 1,211,998 people
in prisons.

That leaves just two people to do the work.

You and…

GET BUSY!

(via thegayte-keeper)

12.07.2010

Tattoo Tuesday

A SEXY ass tattoo artist from Canada going by the name Van the Tattoo Man I discovered via Facebook(go Like his page Just cuz he sexy, thats what I DID lol)