11.16.2014

Possessive, Just Jealous or Just Right?



My man and I have both have establish that I [allegedly] may be the “crazy  one” of our relationship, Ha.   The one always question other’s intention with my man, quick to get in your face about my man, willing to go to jail over my man.

At times I had to sit back and think about rather is this right. Should I chill? Is this shit normal? This is among the reasons people get left…for being too protective. Then there’s a side of me that thinks FUCK THAT…I love HARD and I know I’m crazy, if dude can’t handle my attitude should NOT be with me. And baby, He CAN handle my attitude. He assures me, “I would be worried if you’re ever NOT crazy. It shows how much you love me.” Yet…I still worry. That enough will be enough and it will finally be too much and he leaves.

Everyone he has ever spoken to I've warned him about. Was it possessiveness, jealousy  or was I just right? Because every single one of them actually did end being an asshole/trifling one way or the other. I was always right about them yet I still feel like I’m manipulating the situation by keeping people away from him. Yet I was still right about them...all of them.

I tell myself I should stop tripping, but I feel I have ever fucking reason to trip. I don’t trust people and people have always given me a reason to continue with my lack of trust.


I just love him, I love him hard. I’m crazy  for him…hell, I’m psychotic for him. 

2 comments:

  1. you are a no nonsense man and that's real

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    1. That I am, I guess it's in my blood as my father is a no nonsense type of guy as well.

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