Is the way I USED to feel back in the day when still having an internal conflict with my sexuality. Obviously thinking the desiring to be a bottom, made me less of a man, and if I was the one GIVING the dick then that would some how let me hold on to my masculinity. Obviously that was STUPID, taking It, doesn't make you less of a man, and giving It doesn't make you more of one, because as a gay man...YOU ARE STILL A MAN REGARDLESS! So now in this time in my life I don't mind that I'mma sensitive, submissive, hopeless romantic, dick loving, bottom :-) and I honestly have no desires to be anything more than That. Now being gay is one thing, but when people think or Know you are the one getting fucked, they feel you are the "girl" in the relationship. See the way I feel about is it's more maybe, "like" the girl in the relationship. I really don't mind THAT honestly, see if you are familiar with the term simile...which means a comparison, metaphor, ex: "Love is like this..." So I could still be "like" the female and STILL be a man. Why I feel that way, well...I understand that I want a lot of the same things a girl would want from a man: to be held, feel protected, for him to want to take care of me, to take the lead in the relationship and be the dominant one between us, to be romanced, to be his "shawty," his baby, his angel, and last but not least...his dick :-) Yes, I would would want him to treat me like a good hetero man would treat his girl, but would STILL recognize that I AM A MAN, and would never make me feel less of one, because I'm the submissive bottom in the relationship.